I realized that most people don’t know how to be alone

loneliness is not being alone

it is a lack of connection with anything or anyone

a lack of drive or meaning in your day to day

a lack of genuine connections or care for others

9/10 people care about how you make them feel, not you

9/10 people care about how you fit into their lives, not making room for you

I think about the great Gatsby

the man throwing extravagant parties surrounded by hundreds of different faces every night

he could be lonelier than the person that genuinely connects with the few people they intend to and does something they find meaning in every day

Gatsby is "great" in his grand romantic idealism and relentless hope, but also tragically flawed and self-deluded. His dream is pure, but it's built on illusions and lies, and ultimately, it leads to his downfall.

what is so bad about being alone

is it your own thoughts you don’t want to face

is it the fear that you won’t accomplish anything yourself

or that you can’t at all

are you so prideful that you cannot accept that this world is not built for you

the reality is no one can tell you otherwise

so running, distracting, using people instead of valuing them, none of it makes any rational sense

yet most people do those things

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