As a kid making mistakes meant punishment
it meant being ignored and treated like I was nonexistent until I fixed them
and that taught me that I had to hide my flaws and mistakes and solve my own problems
in life that is a reality for many people
being completely alone in your struggles
I was always afraid of asking for help because I thought it meant that people would think I was running to them to fix my problems
but it wasn’t that I needed someone to give me a solution or anything tangible really
I think we all want a place where we can finally take the mask off and be our authentic selves at the end of the day
and it is okay to look for that in people
and it is okay if you don’t find that in everyone
but it is imperative that you find it in yourself
you have to show yourself some compassion
understand and forgive yourself
because what else is there to do
torture yourself?